This isn’t my story.

This is not the path I would have chosen for my life, this pain, this heartache. I wasn’t supposed to have such a sad story. This isn’t my story because it’s not the story I want for my life, but I am comforted in this one thing. This is His story that I’m living and all this pain and hurt has a reason in God’s plan.

I remember hearing stories of people who get so close to marrying someone and then just days before the wedding day they cancel everything. I have always told myself, that will never be me. I will never let myself get that close to someone unless I know for sure it’s gonna work out. But I got engaged to my best friend and I knew we had issues. I somehow hoped they’d resolve before our wedding date. But the problems he had were deep, sin runs deep and sin hurts others. We made the choice to postpone our wedding date because of the distrust that has formed in our relationship.

My story isn’t one of walking away. I have always loved this guy and I always will. But right now God is asking me to wait. My story is a story of waiting for healing, waiting for peace, waiting for reconciliation, and waiting for the fulfillment of my dreams.

So in my waiting, I have decided to fill my days up with writing. I want to write about the hard and raw emotions I am experiencing and about how true rest and peace is always found in Christ. I want to be open with you about how real the pain of sin is and how much it hurts. I want to share my story because I know I am not the only one with this story. I hope that by sharing, those who are also waiting, will be encouraged to keep trusting God.

When I realize that this story isn’t my story, I finally have peace. I can let go of control. God has called me to live out His story and to wait. That’s what this blog is for. It’s for my waiting. If my story intrigues you can read more here. If you are also in a season of waiting please follow this blog for encouragement and hope.

I’m already anxious to get to the end of this season of waiting and see what God is going to do with my story, but right now God has said wait. So will you join me while I’m waiting.