Oh the amazing amount of feelings that you can experience simply by one thing being changed.
When we have our hopes set on something we really want it is crushing to the soul when we don’t get it. Disappointment leads to hurt, sadness, and I’m learning it can even lead to anger.
I don’t like disappointment but I sadly have no control over the things that happen. I wish I could close my eyes and make all the feelings go away. And sometimes I wish I could go back in time and change things. I wish I saw the signs and got help sooner instead of letting things fall apart in such a messy way. I wish with all my heart I could still have my plans come true and just forget about the disappointments.
To be honest though, the truth is I like soaking into the feelings of hurt and pain. Feeling pity for myself feels oddly good. But in the end I just need to get up and keep going. Keep hoping, keep praying, keep moving, because I know God is working.
I think disappointment likes to tell us that we made a mistake, we failed in some way, so we don’t get what we want. It tells us that we must now wait longer to get what we want. The bottom line is disappointment is an unwanted request from God to wait. Waiting is the last thing we want to do, right? We want what we want when we want it. But without disappointments in life I don’t think we’d be able to learn about how beautiful the virtue of patience is or how sweet the act of surrendering can be.
I may be preaching to myself mostly here. I need to not be discouraged about the huge disappointment life has thrown me so writing about this has helped. But whatever disappointment your facing in you life, I’ll be the first to join you and say disappointment sucks and waiting is no fun. But I also will say that it has a reason. Even though we may not see it, there’s a reason from God for every disappointment, unmet desire, or canceled plan. We just have to keep moving on and keep trusting God.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
While I'm Waiting 
Hey, Sydney.
I’m sorry you’ve been going through this hurting season of disappointment. And you’re right: Writing is an awesome way to process what we’re going through. It’s as much for the writer as it is for the reader! 🙂
Did you happen to run across my post on disappointment when you were on my site? (https://saralivingfree.com/2020/12/27/disappointment-with-god-beginnings-endings/)
Anyway, hope you have a good day today, one that holds sparks of hope and joy.
(By the way, I love that you have a prayer request page on your website. Great idea!)
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Thank you, Sara, for the encouragement. Writing has always been my therapy and it helps me keep my mind busy in seasons of hurting. I just read your post on disappointment and it was very encouraging. Thank you for sharing ❤
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Aw. Thanks for taking the time to go read it. I appreciate it. 🙂
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Keep waiting on the Lord and don’t jump the gun. Marriage is forever and it is hard without issues going into it. Let the Lord lead you in this, and be willing to walk away again if that is how God leads.
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I looked up the definition of disappointment – it’s the emotion we feel when our expectations are not met. The thesaurus says the opposite is ‘satisfaction’ or ‘happiness’. The Bible verse that comes to mind is “May the God of hope fill you with joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13
Just keep trusting in Him as He writes your love story. It’s first and foremost a love story between you and God, and then the rest will follow. Then the emotion of satisfaction and, yes, even joy will start to reside in your soul.
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