I found something the other day.

I was looking for an empty journal and came across some of my old journals. I can get lost whenever I find my journals. It’s such a weird feeling reading through my thoughts from years ago. As I was scanning through one of my very first journals I found a little poem that I wrote all the way back in 2015. Of course when I wrote that poem then, I had no idea that future me would still be in this season of waiting.

Stumbling upon this little poem has encouraged my heart greatly and reminded me so much of how God’s ways truly are best. Even though I’m still waiting for the things my heart desires most, I can rest in knowing that God is working for me and not against me. God’s timing will be better. This little poem from my past reminded me of that truth.

So here’s the little poem, I called it “Why, Why?”

I keep asking why, why?
Why does this keep happening to me
Why am I not where I want to be

I keep asking when, when?
When will I understand my life
When will it all make sense to me

I keep asking how, how?
How will it come together in the end
How can I make any sense out of this

I keep asking and asking
You keep listening and listening
All is silent
Then I hear you

You keep saying trust, trust
Trust in My plan for you
Trust that I know what I’m doing

You keep saying wait, wait
Wait and it will soon make sense
Wait and you will be rewarded

So I say yes, yes
Yes your plan is best for me
Yes I will trust you and wait patiently

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.

Isaiah 55:8-9